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Horoscope (Tuesday December 28th): "You need to trust that you are where you are meant to be, and that you are doing what you are meant to be doing, and that you are with the people you are meant to be with. You may not feel this way a lot of the time, but it is so. Everything that's in your life now has a purpose. Some of the people, places, and things in your life will offer a lesson. Some will propel you to some other level or some other experience, but you are in the right place, and eventually it will lead you to something great".

Lately I haven't been feeling as if those words were exactly true. I started Teen Vogue last week and for my first three days I would say so far so good. With the year coming to an end and right before the holidays the goal was to clean out the fashion closet and return all the samples back to designers and showrooms that have accumulated over the past few months. On my first day I arrived at 9 am and left at 10:30 pm on my second day I arrived at 9 am and left at 11:30 pm on my third day I arrived at 9 am and left and 8 pm. Nearly twelve hour days with a thirty minute break with means only one meal per day and limited hours of sleep due to fact that as soon as you get home in just a few hours you are right back at it again. Thankfully I will only be working at Teen Vogue Monday-Wednesday and working at LF in Soho Thursday-Sunday. With the new year right around the corner soon I will be doing all the cool things like photo shoots and checking in all the new samples we will be getting. My initial plans were to find an apartment and live with roommates or on my own in the city. If only things worked out as planned. I thought long and hard and finally concluded that my plans weren't realistic. To live anywhere in New York is extremely expensive with or without roommates and with that being said I've decided to live out of my suitcase and sleep on the couch at my cousins house in Brooklyn. This was my only option for the time being and I'm trying to be as open minded to the situation. She lives 45 minutes to an hour train ride away from the city in an okay neighborhood that makes me feel uncomfortable and unsafe depending on the time of day. My living situation makes me less excited about this opportunity that I have dreamed of and worked so hard for. I am blessed to have my cousin welcome me into her home with open arms me being me I just like to have my own space and I never like to feel that I am invading someone else's. It felt good to get away from my New York for a week to come home for the holidays and spend time with my family and friends. Home sick just when I thought I was sick of home. The hardest part was packing up my life for five months and trying to make it fit into one suitcase. Below is a painting that was created by my sister it was one of my favorites pieces of her work and she gave it to me for Christmas. If I had my own apartment I would take it with me to New York and hang it. I'm going to leave it back home in Boston unframed to give me something to look forward to when I move back in May. Time, patience, and accepting change is the only way I will get me through this period time away from home.